Barren Lifescape of Anxiety

I try so hard

sometimes I get sick of it

and just want to rebel

and it makes me so mad

when I don’t get it right

or when I get screwed over

then I get sad

so I try harder, put more heart into it

and even then I get less out of it

so then I just want to give up

nestle into myself and say screw this

I’m moving on, I’m better than that

then I wonder if I really am

and what makes me think that

Those are the moments when

I think: it sucks, it just sucks

to live inside my head.