Monday, April 27, 2009

In favor of more balance

How far is it worth going
for the sake of others?

Not far at all, would probably
be the reply from the West.

All the way, would probably
be the reply from the East.

Just like that, the world is split
into school shootings and
bombings in foreign lands. 

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Freedom & Commitment

Freedom can be equated to poverty:
you have nothing to lose.

Commitment can be equated to wealth:
you have everything to lose.

The Grass is Always Greener on the Other Side




Thursday, April 16, 2009

Independence

Independence is an amazing thing
it is empowering, dizzingly so,
it is like drinking margaritas on a sunny deck.

It takes us far on its wings, to places
we never imagined we'd go if we ever bothered
taking off our PJs and leaving the comfort zone.

With independence we drive our own Ferrari
no one tells us where to go or how fast to drive
but, then again, no one tells us anything at all.

Indeed, I'd say, the fall from grace can be worse
than the hangover from the margaritas on the deck
when no one is there to catch us on our fall.

Going for a Walk

I love being places where
I can walk far on my own.

It's better even if those places
are lined with trees and dirt paths
that every once in a while come to a fork
or offer a pebble to throw or a bench to sit.

I don't even mind if my feet get dirty
and my back gets sweaty and I stumble
once or twice on a stray piece of rock
if I get to glimpse one animal or flower.

And if I get rewarded with the upside down
smile of a rainbow in the sky or by the golden
setting of the sun from the peak of a mountain top,
then I know that I have done well choosing that path.

Back in the '80s in 2008

Brazilian coastline

Monday, April 13, 2009

Two Anchors

To know your priorities
makes life so much easier.
It serves as a compass
pointing you North
and letting you know 
when you're facing South.

The trouble begins
when life gets in the way
and we lose our compass
and are left stranded,
looking every which way,
like a boat adrift in the sea. 

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Body and Mind

I treat my body a different way
depending on the day
sometimes I treat it like a receptacle 
there to absorb the excesses of my mind
and the abuses of society.
Sometimes I treat it like a vehicle, 
there to take me someplace else.
Sometimes it takes control
and treats me like a prisoner
trapped in its confines.
Other days it is my friend
and we have a great time together.
More often  though, it is my enemy, 
unwilling to change for my benefit.

This never-ending parade,
this work in progress,
this disaster of a body,
this beautiful machine,
gives me so many choices
and my mind, this constantly changing,
restless, impatient, fast moving, dangerous
controller of my fate, gives it so many purposes
it's no wonder we rarely meet halfway, in peace.

Take responsibility

Unresolved feelings
are like bad loans
Passing on the heartache
by ignoring it and moving on 
is not much better than
passing on a bad loan
as an attractive derivative:
they both come back 
and bite you in the ass. 

If anyone asked

If anyone ever asked
this is the advice I've give:
Stay true to yourself
be in touch with your feelings
ignore what's purely rational
because feelings have a way
of getting in the way.

I'd also say:
be persistent but don't be pushy,
be assertive but don't be aggressive.
Just don't hold it in, don't let it
build into a furious red rage.
Try to be as honest as you can.

This is what else I'd say:
Don't make assumptions
especially ones based on 
feeling rightful and empowered.
Never be afraid to ask questions.

Be flexible, but don't be a pushover.
Don't be afraid to be passionate, 
but be willing to make concessions
and keep your eye on the big prize,
which is to be alive, and mostly:
don't ignore your feelings. 


Wednesday, April 8, 2009

On the road to Paris



The Roller Coaster

I was on a roller coaster today,
even though I don’t like them,
I had convinced myself again
that it was silly not to like a toy.

It took me up slowly, steadily chugging along,
while I happily spied the top of people’s heads
as they moved about, consumed by their lives. 
“This isn’t so bad,” I thought to myself.

It was a beautiful view once I got to the top
I felt like I owned the world from up there.

But then the car I was in suddenly raced downhill
and I was digging my nails into the safety bar,
my hair was flying behind me making my spine cold
and I was terrified, petrified, feeling paralyzed. 

It was so beyond my control, so unexpectedly violent
I felt my lunch come up in protest and my face lose color. 
I couldn’t understand why such a fall was necessary. 

And then it happened again and again
until, by the end, I was placid and conformed
to this way of life, but I was no longer smiling. 

When I got off I refused to speak to anyone around me
feeling like I needed to figure out what had happened
and that’s when I saw that this mad roller coaster,
with all it's dips and turns, ups and downs, was just life.