I was on a roller coaster today,
even though I don’t like them,
I had convinced myself again
that it was silly not to like a toy.
It took me up slowly, steadily chugging along,
while I happily spied the top of people’s heads
as they moved about, consumed by their lives.
“This isn’t so bad,” I thought to myself.
It was a beautiful view once I got to the top
I felt like I owned the world from up there.
But then the car I was in suddenly raced downhill
and I was digging my nails into the safety bar,
my hair was flying behind me making my spine cold
and I was terrified, petrified, feeling paralyzed.
It was so beyond my control, so unexpectedly violent
I felt my lunch come up in protest and my face lose color.
I couldn’t understand why such a fall was necessary.
And then it happened again and again
until, by the end, I was placid and conformed
to this way of life, but I was no longer smiling.
When I got off I refused to speak to anyone around me
feeling like I needed to figure out what had happened
and that’s when I saw that this mad roller coaster,
with all it's dips and turns, ups and downs, was just life.